Trip photos, London-Bath

Just had an awesome trip during the xmas, and i am right now back to ABER, finally. Went to london and the Roman Spa, had some good foods..... what i need to do now is .. focus... for the late revision, hope i could do well this year....

view from Abbey

Roman Spa, excellent architectural building thousand years ago

Bath ABBey

Food in london and Eye of london

hi

Merry Xmas..... Having a white christmas in uk, hope everyone have a wonderful holiday with your beloved!

死别

从facebook里，知道一位朋友的母亲刚去世了。真的没有想到，这消息真的让我吃惊，她母亲是我的小学老师，虽然不曾教过我但她的样子却不曾在我的童年回忆中模糊，毕竟小学生涯里，对每一位老师的尊重，是最真诚的。

我打从心里明白她的痛，那种心如刀割的感受，相信她每分每秒都在心都在滴着血。更明白要坚强不是一朝一日的事，也不是三言两语就能把她的心情平复的。真的希望她能勇敢走过去，不要想我那样，懦弱逃避。

三年前我的一个至亲离开了我，一个月前我的小狗也离我而去，因为忙的关系还没有写下当时的心情。

"我知道你断气前有尽力等我回来，你是我一手养大的，对不起我身在国外不能在你坚持呼下最后一口气等我时回来，对不起没能及时救你，如果我在的话可能你不用走。有缘时还想和你一起做宾主。好遗憾在也不能带你跑步，和你玩耍。暂时不会再养狗，因为很怕那种感觉，上次我回家两星期我几乎连走去狗笼的勇气也没有。安息吧！”

留在世上的亲人，要勇敢面对，因为你爱的人永远活在你心中！

《《最后一次》》

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 先走了 去了好远的地方 不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮 所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易 生死由天决定 不要太伤心 在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

~Winter~

It is winter time now, the weather in UK is getting worse, almost everywhere in UK is snowing on and off. Winter also came earlier than last year.

We have to go to lecturers in the cold, and it is very depressing cause the sky become dark around 5pm...

Hoping for our Society Christmas Dinner as in this would be the last even of the year, hope it goes well.

Holiday~~~but need more time to catch up study...

哗众取宠

身在国外，和网路的关系变得异常亲密。除了facebook，youtube是没一个外国学生的精神粮食。

除了歌曲，新闻等视频，对马来西亚的朋友来说，还有有一个非常热门的youtube视频，那个麻坡人的创作。

他是谁？不就是当年改国歌的那位英雄！他个敢作敢为，直言直吐，我行我素的作风，得到大家的赞赏，认同。

他的才情，无可否认，在娱乐界，是一条康庄大道。可是，我个人认为，他所谓的“敢作敢为”，那些对政府的不满宣泄，对社会一点帮助也没有。对，他创作里的内容，都是国家真是的状况，他表达的方式（粗口），虽然个人不认同，但这种方式在西方国家已是一种艺术，我接受. 但我激励反对他的哗众取宠，不停地把种族课题大事批评，连同政治黑暗极力挑拨。这样无可否认可以让人民醒觉国家的问题，团结名族。但这么极端的态度，真的能让国家更上一城楼？让社会更安定？

身为知识分子，他说的，我们都知道。可是用网路米克风把种种问题不停重炒，真的有用吗？到最后不是变成政府和反对党的交手工具？无意间不是在煽动各族的种族情绪，把本来被经济萧条重创的国家，在还没恢复元气的时候再来一个对头痛击！

今时今日，人民要的不只是种族平等，他们要的是生活安稳，丰足，不是翻开报纸后仰天叹气，害怕着513的重演。再稳定的政府也有舞弊，再明主的国家也有不平等，这是世界事实。

我并不认同现在国家的种族政策，但要改变就要有智者的谋略，不是个老粗的鲁莽，心口挂着个勇字，是于事无补的，只会弄巧反拙！

back to aber, again

Was away from aber for my sis's wedding. It was really tiring, and i really need to pick up my mood to catch up what i have missed.

Missed 4 seminars but luckily the uni accepted my reason and authorized my absent.

Hard time for coming weeks before the Xmas holiday!

Halloween

I know i have been disappear again, i am busying to catch up my studies before i go back to malaysia for my sis's wedding. BTW, some nice pics to upload about halloween, organized by Malaysian Society in aber, hope everyone enjoyed it.

last year aber gang, small reunion

ABERYSTWYTH

Have been long never update, i am now back to aber, settled down, finally i do. Remind me alot of last year memories once i stepped back on aber... this year the msians are not as many as last year, about half of it? too bad but i think should be fine.

trying to pick up the study mood and really do miss everyone in aber last year!

Result is out!

The results are out, passed all, but are disappointing. I worked really hard for the most important subjects for year2, Land Law and Tort Law, but the results do not reflect my affords paid. 45 and 50. These two subjects each carries 30 credit hours of the year (120), which means to get a 2.1 for my LLB, next year i have to work really hard!

It's time to stop disapointing, enjoy my holiday.Next year going to work harder and better, Chang Kai Ping is not going to be defeated so easily. Why? because i m !

latest update

Just came back from hong kong few days ago, still spending most of the time with family, outing still rare now. Putting lots of weight since uk, but this doesnt not stopping me from eating, still eating like just came out from prison :(

Most of the trousers and pants are "getting smaller"... whaha.. actually is my waist getting bigger.

need to do something to push my fitness back, keep growing horizontally with my height will make me look like a ball.

aim: jog/walk (with my dogs), swim, futsal and doing push up!!!!

All my year3 friends' results are out, most of them got good results and they finished their LLB, and my results only coming out next friday.. quite worry about mine, hope i can pass all, with good result!

BUSy...

yeap i am back to malaysia ady... but i realized i am busier than i am having exam...

:P

What am i busying for ???

WATCHING and...

PLAYING

FOOTBALL

房间的窗

经过一连串的匆忙收拾，终于把东西收拾好，九个月日积月累的杂物，收的收，丢的丢，这房间有回到了当天的感觉，第一天踏进这里的感觉，只是，少了陌生的感觉，多了那亲切感！

回想起当天的心情，一个人背着行李，用了差不多二十四小时的机程和路程才安顿到这房间来。当天晚上的窗外，是寂寞是陌生是无奈。

今天，再次用心地望出这窗外，不再陌生不再寂寞，但还是无奈，但这次的无奈不再是因为离乡背井前来求学，而是无奈这九个月的日子，将会成为永远的回忆。

这四四方方的窗口，有如电视机般地，播放着我们的一切，我们的点滴。我们的感情和友谊，实实在在地印证我们一起走过的日子。我们的欢笑和眼泪，加上这里的一景一幕，串出了属于我们的主题曲。

这一道窗，将会永远在我心里！

又一次离别

天无不散自筵席，九个月的时光就在不知不觉中过去了，回想起当天独自一个人到这里来，到今天的一切，那种不舍得的离愁，今天竟然盖过了思家的情感。虽然只有短短的九个月，但大家都身在国外，从不认识到接近，从接近到熟悉，再到习惯。虽然不止于共生死，但这段日子的互助，大家一起上课，吃饭，玩了，旅行，一起开心过，伤心过，如今要面对各奔前程的时刻，的确很难接受，这九个月的欢乐时光，将是我们最开心自由的，再也不能那么轻松自在了。前面的日子，就真正需要面对大人的社会烦恼。
我是year2的，明年我还需要回到这里，但，人面将全非，将回到一个人！
好遗憾不能参加你们的毕业礼，i will definately miss you all next year!!!
祝：前程景秀，要加油噢！将来如疲惫或有什么不愉快的事，不妨想想我们在aber的点滴！
好高兴认识你们！
Ah Yap
Dragon
Min Yin
Rachel
Kok Wai
Syaiful
Kenny
Shanker

finish exam

Finally I am done with my exam, after few months of full concentration, i think i work really really hard for my papers this year, I put study as priority for everything. This made me expect a lot more, a lot more than i could do, i feel stress and disappointed. The hard work I did was really enough, but performance in the exam always screws me up, really need to learn from it and should not repeat the same mistake. The more afford i put in, my confidence become lower.

Wonder where is the relax and confidence Chang Kai Ping gone to, i always know i am not a smart and clever student, so I try to overcome it with more afford. I am not a 1st class student, but can my hard work bring me to 2nd upper class? Based on this year, i think not.

Pointless to think back and blame anything, just pray that i pass everything and next year, I am going to do better, because, I am Chang Kai Ping.

梦。怀念

您又回来看我了吗？还是刚考完landlaw的我累坏了，又犯了坏毛病？

这次，依旧是您在生病时候，梦见我带您`到商场走走，您我走失了，我好担心，好担心身体不好的你会出事，会彷徨。

就在我着急的时候，我在繁忙的人群中看到了您，毫不犹豫地飞奔了过去！

回到您身边，立刻把您搀扶着，您也如常得把体重压在我身上，我依然感觉到您的脆弱无力。

您告诉我，您看见了我心里也放心多了，其实见到了您我更加放心。

过后姐姐和妈妈就来和我们一起走街了，如果那不是梦多好？

就算是一天，一天让我再次紧紧拥着你痛哭也好？不想只能再梦里相见，睁开眼睛也只由我自己，一次次抱着枕头放声大哭...

如果眼泪能把您带回，我愿意把眼睛哭掉，只为在建您一面.....

陌生的旧朋友

明白也理解仇恨能给的能耐，动力和威力

因为我也生活在怨恨中

忠言逆耳 但还是想把耳边风吹一会

只希望你也明白仇恨也让人盲了眼睛，放弃理智

早在不赞同你时 距离有了

但毕竟认识多年 朋友一场

还希望你能郑重

路是你选的 走的也是你

不能后悔

祝你一路顺风

母亲节快乐

连续几天的阴天，也为这意义重大的日子带来了阳光！

在此住天下母亲快乐，天下子女知恩图报，孝顺父母！

也希望在马来西亚的妈妈身体健康，安享晚年！

还有，在远方的阿姨，早日得到永生，我们对您的思念，对您的敬爱，不曾改变，母亲节快乐！

忙！

在为年终大考作最后的冲刺！

多俩个月就可以回家了，亲爱的马来西亚，等我！

百行孝为先

不孝者，猪狗不如！请抽十分钟，读后请给父母打个电话！

如果你在一个平凡的家庭长大，如果你的父母还健在，不管你有没有和他们同住——

如果有一天，你发现妈妈的厨房不再像以前那么干净；

如果有一天，你发现家中的碗筷好象没洗干净；

如果有一天，你发现母亲的锅子不再雪亮；

如果有一天，你发现父亲的花草树木已渐荒废；

如果有一天，你发现家中的地板衣柜经常沾满灰尘；

如果有一天，你发现母亲煮的菜太咸太难吃；

如果有一天，你发现父母经常忘记关瓦斯；

如果有一天，你发现老父老母的一些习惯不再是习惯时，就像他们不再想要天天洗澡时；

如果有一天，你发现父母不再爱吃青脆的蔬果；

如果有一天，你发现父母爱吃煮得烂烂的菜；

如果有一天，你发现父母喜欢吃稀饭；

如果有一天，你发现他们过马路行动反应都慢了；

如果有一天，你发现在吃饭时间他们老是咳个不停，千万别误以为他们感冒或着凉，(那是吞咽神经老化的现象) ；

如果有一天，你发觉他们不再爱出门……

如果有这么一天，我要告诉你，你要警觉父母真的已经老了，器官已经退化到需要别人照料了。

如果你不能照料，请你替他们找人照料，并请你请你千万千万要常常探望，不要让他们觉得被遗弃了。

每个人都会老，父母比我们先老，我们要用角色互换的心情去照料他，才会有耐心、才不会有怨言，当父母不能照顾自己的时候，为人子女要警觉，他们可能会大小便失禁、可能会很多事都做不好，如果房间有异味，可能他们自己也闻不到，请不要嫌他脏或嫌他臭，为人子女的只能帮他清理，并请维持他们的“自尊心”。

当他们不再爱洗澡时，请抽空定期帮他们洗身体，因为纵使他们自己洗也可能洗不干净。当我们在享受食物的时候，请替他们准备一份大小适当、容易咀嚼的一小碗，因为他们不爱吃可能是牙齿咬不动了。

从我们出生开始，喂奶换尿布、生病的不眠不休照料、教我们生活基本能力、供给读书、吃喝玩乐和补习，关心和行动永远都不停歇。如果有一天，他们真的动不了了，角色互换不也是应该的吗？

为人子女者要切记，看父母就是看自己的未来，孝顺要及时。

树欲静而风不止、子欲养而亲不在

你留意过自己的父母吗?

当你嫌弃你的父母时,请您读读这段话!


我的孩子:

哪天

如果你看到我日益老去

反映慢慢迟钝

身体也渐渐不行时

请耐着性子试着了解我,理解我......


当我吃的脏兮兮

甚至已不会穿衣服时

不要嘲笑我

耐心一点

记得我曾经花了多少时间教你这些事吗?

如何好好的吃 好好的穿

如何面对你的生命中的第一次.


当我一再从复

说着同样的事情时

请你不要打断我

听我说小时侯

我必须一遍又一遍的读着同样的故事

直到你静静的睡着.



当与我交谈时

忽然不知到该说什麽了

给我一些时间想想

如果我还是无能为力

不要紧张

对我而言重要的不是说话

而是能跟你在一起.


当我不想洗澡时

不要羞辱我

也不要责骂我

记得小时侯我曾经编出多少理由只为了哄你洗澡吗?



当我外出

找不到家的时候

请不要生气

也不要把我一个人扔在外边

慢慢带我回家

记得小时侯我曾经多少次因为你迷路而焦急的找你吗?



当我神智不清

不小心砸碎饭碗的时候

请不要责骂我

记得小时侯你曾经多少次把饭菜扔到地上吗?



当我的腿不听使唤时

请扶我一把

就像我当初扶着你踏出人生的第一步.

当哪天我告诉你我不想再活下去了



不要生气

总有一天你会了解

了解我已风烛残年来日可数.

有一天你会发现

即使我有许多过错

我总是尽我所能给你最好的.



当我靠近你时

不要觉得感伤,生气或埋怨

你要紧挨着我

如同当初我帮着你展开人生一样

MALAGA!!!!!

yeah... here to update my MALAGA, Spain trip... an awesome trip i ever had... got a sun tent, which i am very happy with that :)

SPain is just a beautiful place, full of beautiful girls and pretty guy... thats true.. all the spanish guy or girls looks really good.......will show u pic to prove it!

this is only one of the random girl on the street... imagine girls of this standard is everywhere..

3 guys tried to act cool, on the same position the pretty chicks was.

Gilbrata

the place which full of fucking rich guy... was my idea to take this pic... syaiful must thank me.. looks danb good...

random fight with prasad in the morning

sun bathing... really enjoy the sun after months in uk

the car of us in spain..

view from our apartment... directly facing the sea

梦。痛

又再梦见你了，这次，得以在梦里和你倾诉。梦中您已病重，我带您到外用餐。当时下着绵绵的细雨，我如常地搭着你的肩膀，另一只手撑着雨伞，和您慢慢地走在街上。一路上，我得以告诉你我一直没有机会再向您说的话。

多么希望那不是一场梦，梦里的每一个字，都是我的肺腑之言。多么希望梦中和您接触的一分一秒可以持续，多么希望，您还在世上......

那一番话，我永远不会忘记，因为那完全是我的心声。记得我搭着您的肩膀告诉您，您是我最尊敬的人，小时候，上完厕所后，是您替我清洁。小时候，使您替照顾我的衣食住行，我的一切一切...能在你人生的最后一段路上，做回您曾替我作的东西，是我的荣幸。我不介意替你收拾粪便，愿意扶您行走，为你的一切，我心甘情愿。阿姨，您听到吗？

真的还不愿接受您已离开的事实，盼望在梦里见到您，但却害怕梦醒后失去您的彷徨失望，不喜欢梦醒后只能抱着枕头痛苦的感觉，不喜欢睁开眼睛后只有那黑漆漆的天花板的孤单，真的只有在梦中，才能和你相见吗？

Will be out for Malaga, Spain for 1 week...

Malaga super beach, i will be there..........!!!!!

他们的故事-风和云

数年前的天 风和云邂逅对方

双方爱得深 爱得鸿烈 认定对方是今生所要的

盲目的爱 让人陶醉 也让人疯狂

风和云 经历了无数的暴雨 无数的暴雪

以为对方是命中注定的那个

但他们错了

他们忘了

风和云 永远只有你追我逃 相遇不曾长久

何况是相爱？

云的动向 是风带动的

云停下的时候 也是风离开的守候

云忘了

风的强大 风的傲慢 风的不讲理 风的不成熟

风忘了

云只是一团蒸汽 容易被吹散 部坦一击

那一年 天地变色

风的无知傲慢 把云彻底的吹散了

当初的爱 当初的义务反顾

就只剩下今天的怨恨 今天的埋怨

云无法接受风当初的残酷

决定逃离回忆 寻找自己的方向

风无法用后悔填补当日的无知

自我困在回忆中 寻找回忆中的云

就这样 成了今天的局面

个分东西 旧情不再

事到如今 我 旁观者

只能望天长埃

多情自古空与恨 只恨绵绵无绝期

那一阵强盛的风 和那一朵美丽的云

望君三思

-献上《我的错》-

Yeap the CNY late update..

SORRY about the delay.. have been really busy.... wanna show off my Chinese New Year Self-declared holiday in Malaysia now : P

I really enjoyed my 2 weeks there a lot, able to catch up with my Heng Daizz, especially Joash who just came back from Malaysia after 1 year in Australia, had a really good reunion with them.... They are really good buddies.... heart- to heart bro, appreciate them a lot!

yeap, i spent most of my time with my family, keep my parents company, really miss them a lot, really wish i can be at home all the time under their protection and caring. I wish i could stay beside them all the time to take care of them, I really love them!!!!

My nephew Yang Yang have grown up, now he is able to speak more than last time, he can recognize all of us, calling us.. really sweet to have him in our family, the happiness he brought for us are unlimited..

Random pics...

brozzz

FOOD that i miss that most in uk

M-night+Done with assignment

yeah i submitted my assignment.. i am assignment free now...

Last Saturday was my uni Malaysian night, the biggest function of our society, as a committee member i involved in some preperation works, and also forced to sing on the stage, was a queary, not solo luckily... however, really had a good time on the preperation and ofcause enjoyed the night, took quite a few of pictures....the only imperfect thing is, i dont have a partner...:P joking lar.

can see which one is me ?

MAN U

My gang in Aber..

Result and current update

Still got no time to update u guys about the days in Malaysia, update abit about the first week of me after returned to ABer.

Have been sick for few days, consulted doctor and taking antibiotic. The infection causes my right ear almost deaf for temporatly, luckily it's better now, only flu and cough still bothering me.

Yeap my result is quite good, took two subjects last semester, both subject i got 2nd upper class marks, 61 and 62. I think is quite good and i hope this can be a good begining, hope i able to maintain the class. i have my mission to prove.

Still working for my assignment but is very slow, because i am very lazy. Hope i can pick up the mood as soon as possible!

back to ABER

After two weeks of "holidays" in Malaysia, i have returned to uk, back to reality. The two weeks were just like a dream, and now i have to face the reality, with a mission of finishing the land law assignment in 9days... without any preperation, and haven really understand the question yet.....

Having cought, fever and flu in a time, consequences of the enjoying 2 weeks in malaysia, biscuits, hang out overnight and all the mamak food.....

will update the 2 weeks holiday in msia soon, now have to busy with my assinment 1st..
take care

Scary Day

I saved my dog's life today.

His neck tied by the chain, the chain was not that good, the chain getting tighter and tigher because he jumps here and there. The conditions become worse because no one realise it until i saw it. I was stunned by the situation, i carried the dog immidiatly and shout at my bro to ask for help.

We brought him to a clinic nearby, unfortunately the vet was not there. Luckily there were a nurse and a customer kindly help us. At first there was no equitment to cut off the tightened chain, me and my brother have to run few shops to get a big player to cut it off. That time was about 6pm, almost all the shops closed, luckily one of the boss willing to re-open the shop to sell it to us after i explaine the situation to us.

Luckily we able to make it on time to cut the chain, saved the dog life....

Feel sorry to him because i am the one who bought the chain to him, and didnt pay attention enough.... hope he can recover, tomorrow will bring him go doctor.

Malaysia

right now at Msia enjoying my CNY with my buddies and family, is so lovely and warm.... will update more when i go back to aber....


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Early chinese reunion dinner

Had my reunion dinner with my friends at my flat yesterday night, quite a good nite, mostly indian and chinese. I cooked chicken soup, not bad. Enjoyed my time with them.

finally

Finally, the parcel from malaysia posted by my parents have reach...after 1months dissapointment!

words from mum.....and so the warm!